What is "Mature" Anyways?

Sometimes I wonder when my brain is going to catch up with my age.

There are many times I feel, when surrounded by other people my age, that I am more mature.  I'm not sure if it's because my job forces me to instruct other people my age and older on how to do their jobs, or whether it's because I try to avoid cursing in my everyday speaking.  Either way - there are DEFINITELY times when I feel the exact opposite of mature.

Take, for instance, my work wardrobe.  I would LOVE to wear jeans and flip flops every day, but that would not go over well at a Monday morning meeting with upper management.  They'll come in, suit and tie, and hair straight off the head of Stephen Harper.  And then there's me - wearing the leggings from XXI and a dress/shirt that comes down to a respectable and work appropriate length.  Whenever my mom goes work clothes shopping with me, she gets to me try and buy a blazer.  I look at them on the hanger and think 'Hmmm. Sure.  That would look great.  Very profesh'
I find my size, and make my way to the change room.  Upon entering those ever-flattering lights and mirrors behind the change room door, I put on the blazer and look up...

Oh my god - I'm 80.

With a blazer on, I feel instantly aged by 30+ yrs.  Not sure why, but for some reason it has been drilled into my brain that 'structured' translates into 'grown-up'.  My position at work is one of authority, but should it come down to the way I dress? No.  If they won't listen to me because I'm wearing leggings, a blazer is not going to help the situation.

Other times I feel like a small child, is when people around me are talking about things like religion or politics.  I can't join the conversation because I'm ignorant to both subjects, but not only that - they make me react the way a 5 year old would.  I get all angry and have a temper tantrum about how we should throw away money and everyone just do their own thing.  What? Bad Plan? If we all shared - then we wouldn't have to worry about voting for people we hate, and then watching ones we hate more win and control our lives.

See what I mean? These are not the thoughts of someone who is mature.

Finally, I can't sleep in any place, at any time.  Old people can (aka people my age).  My brain is in constant "I don't want to drool in front of young people" mode, which causes me to stay awake on planes, train and in automobiles (and skytrains).  Maybe this doesn't make me immature, but when I look at all the sleeping people on the train, the mature variety is definitely the majority.

In closing, I'd like to say that feeling younger then my age isn't a bad thing at all.  In some cases, I could probably step it up a bit and act more mature, but what is mature anyway?  Boring? Conformed? Worst.  Give me immature any day.
Now please excuse me, I have to go set up my slip'n'slide while it's still sunny...