I have mental dilemmas on a daily basis, but this one has been on my mind a lot lately, so better to get it out.
|back to BC...back to work?...back to real life?...back to bed?!?! Ahhhhhh!|
So anyways, I came back to BC prepared for the end of fun as I knew it. Gone were the days of my sleeping till the next day. No more would a hat constitute a hair-do. I had to go back to work, because that's what real people do - they make money and then they do stuff with it. Like have kids, buy a house, and get groceries instead of $5 footlongs. We're talkin' serious adult stuff.
I have been back at work for a week and have been questioning my role within the company. I have been given the opportunity to take back the job I gave up in April, and basically start back up without skipping a beat. I was prepared to go a different route, and mentally - my brain is trying to process what this means, in terms of actually having a real career.
If my job before was considered my career, then it would make sense that I go back to it the same way you'd get on a bike after you fell off (unless you're me, in which case you'd throw the bike in the dumpster and buy a car). I had almost, very easily, given up on my 'career' - because I didn't know that I viewed it as such. Imagine if I would have taken an alternative position and regretted the decision? I know that jobs come and go - but I'm the type that like to hold onto them. 10 years into my career with the same company, I feel like I want to continue to see where things go. After 11 months of not working, being back out in public with actual people instead of tv show characters, has recaptured my confidence. I know that I was not meant to be sitting in an office, tucked away from crazy customers who lose their minds over PST - I love those ones the most because I don't make the rules, I just follow them - AND OH, how I missed saying that!
I guess if there comes a day that I feel like my job is not the right one for me - then I will do what everyone else in that scenario would do - collect EI again...
haha I joke, I joke...
No, if it came down to it - I would get on my computer, go to Google, type in "Vancouver Jobs" and find myself an actual job. Until that day comes, however, I am more then pleased to get back to my career and to once again feeling like a contributing member of society. I don't know if I can pin point the exact moment when my 'job' turned into my 'career' but I think that's the part I like best about it. Maybe if I always look at it as a job - then I will never feel trapped - and thus in turn be happy-go-lucky forever and ever! Yay work!!!